Freed From Anxiety – Laikynn’s Story

Laikynn’s deliverance testimony is a beautiful picture of God’s willingness to redeem us even out of our darkest moments.

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I think a lot of the terms that I read back, like and think back on how I acted. It’s like looking at a different person. And I know, like a lot of my Christian friends were like really concerned for me. Even the people I didn’t even talk to because they could sense there was something seriously wrong.

There is spiritual warfare in this world, and there are demons that want to hurt you. And there are people that will tell you that it’s okay to be hurt by demons when it’s not.

I grew up a Christian. I remember feeling like a horrible Christian that was always afraid when God would always say like, do not be afraid. But I would try to like, repent of that and like, oh, I’m sorry, God. Like I’m always afraid of these things. I don’t know why. But like, no matter how many times I’d ask God to take it away, he wouldn’t.

I didn’t want to leave my house. I wouldn’t go to any kind of social event last minute because I didn’t have, like, the time to calm myself down from it. You go to zero risk activities and you feel like you’re going to your death. There’s just this indescribable, crippling fear. That’s not natural.

I remember becoming really bitter at God for what I was going through and what I was dealing with. That is what really propelled me to kind of step away from Christianity. I didn’t care. I didn’t care about the consequences. I didn’t care about really anything. I just wanted to get away from it. I wanted to be able to function like a normal adult. And since that desperation was there, I went ahead and found some things on the internet from which is to learn how to get rid of this anxiety that I was struggling so much with.

And there was a witch that was had a shop up on Etsy, and she was selling a like variety of different pendants that had specific properties to help, you know, get what you want. And I selected the one that was closest to what I was looking for. Then after I purchased it, I ended up going through this whole ritual that involved, like water, the full moon, chanting. But the weird thing is, is that after that, the anxiety that had crippled me for so long had been held at bay to a normal level of anxiety. It felt like I had no anxiety at all. And the only times that I would feel it was when I was doing something that involved God, like going to church. I remember having like little panic attacks every time I would try to go to church, because I did happen to still live with Christians.

I was completely and mentally ready for year 2024, because I had taken some advice from some witches on how my year was going to go, and I thought it was going to be a great year. It didn’t go exactly how I planned because some people ended up coming into my life.

And so the first person was from the the job I had, she was a regular. She was one of those people. Like, she didn’t have to tell you that she was a Christian to be able to tell you that she was a Christian. And it’s not like the whole, talking about Jesus all the time. It’s just something about her spirit was so strong that I knew there was something different about her.

And then Maddie is kind of like the extroverted friend that’s like, let me adopt all the introverts because I love people so much. She has such a real relationship with God. And it was weird, like, what? Like, people can have what? And so I remember actually being quite jealous of her and like, wow, this is crazy. I remember when I was a Christian, I tried to be like that and never worked out. She was also afraid to talk to me about Jesus, but she still did. But not in a like, I’m going to shove this down your throat way, but in a way of like, wow, I happen to really love Jesus.

I ended up meeting a guy named Mark, and, he was also one of those people that had a very genuine relationship with God. And I was able to hang out with him as well. And he kind of turned into the person that I would go to to complain about Christianity. I remember going to him one time and kind of like just sobbing and complaining that, like, I was living vicariously through Maddie because every time I opened the Bible, I’d start getting an anxiety attack. And it got to the point where it was like, I was so angry that I couldn’t read the Bible that I ended up actually, like throwing them away. He gave me the very sound advice to go to Cameron and Cindy Howell because he was like, well, maybe you’re having a demon problem. And I was like, you think I’m possessed? And then I remember looking at him and he was like, kind of freaked out for a minute, looking.

I ended up getting invited to a, UFC fight night socializing thing by Maddie that was being hosted by Cameron and Cindy. How? So I remember, like, getting to the house and, like, not even, you know, 15 minutes into being at their house, Cameron approaches me and says, hey, you’ve been showing up in some of my dreams and I’d like to talk about it. Like the interpretation. At first I was like, what? I believed that there was meaning behind dreams.

I ended up taking them up on the offer of going over to their home for dinner the next week, and they said a lot of really interesting things at dinner. And then after dinner got down to business and Cameron started talking about the dreams that he had. I don’t really remember a lot of them, but I do remember, I believe is the second one that he had brought up where I was standing by a car, but I had told Cameron that I was practicing low level witchcraft. I was immediately freaked out because, well, like I had been and, I had never told anybody about it. And he was like, I don’t know what that means. I’m not trying to say anything like that kind of disclaimer, but I was thinking, oh, no, they know I’ve been practicing low level witchcraft.

I kind of started to think in my mind, like maybe these people actually have something to say. Like, maybe this is something I should believe. And then the moment that happened, a child started screaming. Their oldest daughter ended up hitting her head on a piece of furniture. And apparently there was like, blood gushing out of her face. And it was a very horrible moment, but I was very freaked out because in my brain I was thinking, oh, no, that was probably my fault. I got up and I was like, okay, I’ll let them do what they need to do to take care of her, I’ll get out of their hair. I go down the stairs about to like, literally walk out the door, and Cameron stops me and is like, hey, before you go, do you have any jewelry items that would be powered by demonic power? And I was like, yes, two. And then I left.

I was very, very freaked out because it was way too accurate to be just a coincidence. I got into my car and I drove home panicking, and I knew exactly what I needed to do. I down the hall, went to my room, went to the corner of my room where the pendants were hanging. I grabbed them in my hand. I went to my car and I drove out to the sticks, and I chucked them into a body of water. And in that moment of, I think, symbolic cutting of my ties with that. It was like that thing that had been holding back the anxiety to keep me functional, had come back sevenfold. And like, I was immediately just like, trembling felt like I was going to throw up. I was full of anxiety. I went to my car freaking out, and I continued to freak out for the rest of the week until I was able to get a dinner with them the next Tuesday, because I was internally blaming Cameron and Cindy for the the horror that was I was going through.

And so the next Tuesday, I you know, went over to their home. We had dinner. I remember that I told them just about everything that I had done and like witchcraft. Then they decided to try to, sell me this ridiculous thing of, you know, Jesus giving me freedom. And I could do it that night. And I was like, whatever. This is a stupid sales pitch that they’re so full of garbage. But I was also, like, desperate enough to to accept. So I was like, okay, If this will work, that’s great. If it doesn’t, I’m leaving disappointed. Cindy told me to close my eyes and picture Jesus really to me at that time, he just looked like white clothing, very warm, like wind. And I was just like, okay, this is weird, but I’ll try it out. And so she had me go through a whole and there were multiple doors. And the first door that I went into, there were two beings in there that I had recognized as characters that I had illustrated throughout my life, and that went into rebuking the spirit of anxiety the moment that I had gone through, rebuking that spirit, the spirit of anxiety in the name of Jesus. It was like Velcro had been like ripped from my tailbone to my shoulders and like, like floated away. And like from that very moment on, it was like I had never experienced anxiety again.

This is a scam like that, that was how my brain was like, this is not real. This is like just a psychological thing, like whatever. I don’t believe this. But then once we finished that meeting and I had gone through and rebuked several of those things, I remember getting up the next day and I was like, did that actually work? Because I was expecting it to come back? I was I was waiting for it to come back. And I remember, like driving myself to jujitsu, expecting to be, like, trembling and like, not be able to breathe. And it didn’t come. And I was like, it got to the point where it felt like I had chopped a limb off. Then the next day I was like, okay, well, it’ll come back the second day it didn’t come back the second day, or the third or the fourth, and it’s almost been a year and I still haven’t experienced anxiety. And it was such a giant miracle in my life that, sdomething that’s plagued me literally since the womb. 24 years later, it’s gone and hasn’t come back. It’s really, really wild.

So yeah, I’m thankful that he let me go through that. Because I don’t think I would be as strong of a Christian as I am now because of it. I will say that I know God is. No respecter of persons. He doesn’t favor me above everybody else and what God gave me, he can give you. I know God wants his children to have freedom and to live life more abundantly, and that whether or not it takes just a second or like me, it took 24 years. I believe that if you ask God for freedom, he will give it to you in his timing. Because God does give his children freedom. And I think there’s a certain level of humility and being humble to ask for help. That is extremely important because that’s what God wanted me to do.

Yeah, God is the God of second chances. Because I straight up turned around and did the exact thing that God would not want me to do, which is basically worshiping the devil and he still wanted me to come back to him.

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